April 26th, 2017
|01:57 am - HAY LJ CHECK THIS OUT|
First of all. Livejournal sucks. It has always sucked.
Find me on https://alynna.dreamwidth.org/ if you want.
Current Location: Dreamwidth
Current Mood: Gone
December 14th, 2009
|06:35 am - Well i'm out of here.|
I've officially grown tired of how much LJ advertises at me. I cant seem to use a single function without getting an ad popup or having ads take up half my screen.
I will continue blogging on Furaffinity. Anyone who wants to continue to watch my journaling should add a watch for me there (alynna). For those not on FA, i'm sorry. Its just gotten too annoying for me here.
Current Location: United States, ,
Current Mood: disappointed
February 19th, 2009
|09:46 am - Writer's Block: Animal Instinct|
What creature would you choose as your spirit animal?
I guess it goes without saying that i'd choose fox... Seems pretty simple to me. If I had to choose another one, it'd either be a dragon or some kind of kitty ..
February 18th, 2009
|11:03 am - Kitsuhana updates|
So i've gotten Kitsuhana moved back over to my server, fixed all the SQL stuff, the DNS is all propagated, its basically back up and running again. Not to say it was ever down, it was on Samui's server, because I had to move, get resettled, then do all the work to get it moved to my server. And trust me it isn't just moving some files around, it took about 16 fox-hours to make all the moves and changes.
I have dropped some update posts about community standards and stuff... I also have to note that Kitsuhana is an otherkin site, not a furry one, so keep that in mind if you visit.
On Second Life i'm working on opening an otherkin club, it will be in the Kitsuhana sim, though it is still in progress. I'm also wanting to build a druidic grove in front of my treehouse, but exactly what to put there is escaping me...
Current Mood: thoughtful
January 31st, 2009
|10:07 am - Down one more tooth -- and loving it|
Well... yesterday I decided I could tolerate no more and actually found a dentist willing to do an extraction at a price I could afford. An xray later it was confirmed I have.. had... an abscess...
My third molar from the back, top left, was removed.
And I cannot give words to how happy I am. The moment I had this removed I had instant energy, I feel like superfox. Like I could punch the ground and break California off into the ocean.
I've come to realise that I have had this abscess at SOME level for the last 2 years straight. The infection had weakened me, sapped my energy, changed my eating patterns entirely, and that I had it for so long that I forgot what life was like without pain. All because the dentists in Sacramento wanted to rip $300+ to do it. I found one here in Pasadena that did it for $125..
Now I'm remembering. I feel like I could take on the world again. I never traced back the lack of energy i've had the last 2 years, to this one damn tooth... It went in and out but it always hurt when I ate and now that it is gone.. let me tell you what... theres no pain there. I expected it to hurt for at least a day but I was eating real food out both sides of my mouth within hours... *hours*...
I look back on the last 2 years and have to ask myself, and the world... how much have I lost out on, because of this tooth... have I stayed sick for the entire 2 years and got so used to it that I didn't realise I was sick anymore? I feel myself recovering, like I could do all the things I thought I was simply burnt out on... I have the time and energy again. I cant believe one tooth can take away your functionality like this... i woke up at 6 this morning.. its just a world of difference..
Current Mood: happy
|09:40 am - FC Con Report|
To make a note, me and yaochi went to and from the con entirely on public transit (Achievement unlocked) so the trip starts there.
( Time for my con report... its a little late but better late than never....Collapse )
This year I am planning on going to AC, though I don't know how yet. But I am preparing for it in advance.
Current Mood: high
January 26th, 2009
|03:14 pm - Preliminary FC post|
I'm still at FC. This being said, everyone has to check out my favorite score so far at FC ... a fox kigurumi suit :) with paws :)
Current Mood: happy
January 21st, 2009
|04:30 pm - lets see here.. update|
Been packing for FC..... yes i'm still going...
Got the paypal problem I was having, resolved, now i got plenty for FC
my bad tooth been acting up today, hopefully it wont be still bothering me at FC. Getting to FC will be a trip on Amtrak, 10 hours of just watching the world go by...
Current Mood: lethargic
January 19th, 2009
|04:56 am - This has to be one of the worst nightmares I ever had...|
Its 4:45am and i just woke up from one of the worst dreams i've ever had.. the highlights are as follows:
1) Its one of the very few dreams i ever had where i started as a human male form...
2) I woke up crying, and I am actually pretty sure I felt physical pain during the dream
3) I ended up waking up right at the same time spectravixen did.. and not long after cal_foxx did too. This seems to be ... well i'm not a big believer in coincidences.
( This dream was logged as a IM conversation behind this cut.Collapse )
4) As a note, I have yet to figure out if spectravixen saved me from something or not there..
5) BTW i forgot to mention, the RP group that was mixed among the faerie court in my dream was the Avilion RP group...
Current Mood: scared
January 18th, 2009
|10:11 pm - Doo-dah parade|
Went to the doo-dah parade today. Its a silly parade in Pasadena. Apparently if you show up before they start and pay the $10 entry fee you can march in it. I didnt. That being said, heres some of the highlights I saw..
1) Southern California furries on parade. If i had known this ahead of time, I would have gotten my fursuit shipped down here from Eureka, and marched in it too.
2) Anonymous, protesting $cientology. No, they didn't war with the furries.
3) a barbecue float, where people were passing out hotdogs and stuff to the crowd.
Lots of other things too, i got lots of pictures but they're stuck in my phone at the moment. I need to get a mini-sd reader to get them off.. but most the pictures arent that good because I was in bad picture taking position.
For the rest of day I spent it either napping or talking to cal_foxx.. I do hope to talk to spectravixen and fyremane soon.. I'm so happy lately. And FC is coming so soon too. It seems like everything is on an upward shift in my life at the moment...
Current Mood: happy
|12:23 am - I cant believe something like tonight has happened to me ...|
First the days synopsis ...
I spent most the day out getting little things like groceries and stuff... one funny incident I have to recall is that me and yaochi were out and someone was driving like a clown and Yao Chi was getting upset about him basically stopping in the middle of an intersection while he was trying to make a turn...
So we look at this driver. It was an actual clown. I shit you not. White face, red lips, etc, etc. We just look at each other and crack up.
The rest of the day is... typical, until i get on SL..
( Behind this cut is lovey-dovey stuff ...Collapse )
Current Mood: loved
January 17th, 2009
|11:34 pm - Furray Survay|
Current Mood: happy
January 16th, 2009
|01:18 pm - Objection .. and on energy .. and doing .. something ..|
Looking back it surprises me how much living in Sacramento drained me and how much different it seems here...
Maybe its because its much easier to be open about being otherkin where I live now. There seriously is a great gulf between therians and furries, and I can honestly say that I understand why therians are so.. defensive about it. Most furries won't give a second thought to the spirituality behind our beliefs, its just as easy to say 'yer crazy'.. i've encountered this alot.
Though I have a seperate set of objections in my self-assessment in being part faerie.. this coming from therianthrope communities I wanted to be part of, and even some LJ communities as well.
What am I? The simple answer is 'spirit fox', which could be construed to mean 'kitsune' (I have multiple tails) or it could also mean faerie fox (I have faerie wings). I believe it to be a mix of faerie and kitsune, and its taken a decade of research and meditation to come up with this self-assessment. To be quite blunt, I didn't even know if I was a kitsune at first. When I started getting a firm idea on what I am (we're talking around a decade ago now) I thought I was just a fox with multiple tails... kitsune wasn't a word for me.. i didn't know what one was. I always just said 5 tailed pixie fox ... that's what I felt and saw. Someone in the furry fandom introduced me to the concept of kitsune and it took about a year and a half for me to figure out I am one ...
Anyways... getting off the main point here..
( Getting long, time to cutCollapse )
In any case, the original purpose of this post was going to be about my.. interest.. in doing something.. i dont know what but i have ideas... i have the ideas to write, or maybe talk.. maybe write a book about being otherkin, or start a webcast.. or something.. i just don't know ..
Current Mood: energetic
|11:12 am - BoA problem mostly resolved|
I tell you the truth I almost had a log file to post here...
But BoA actually did reverse the overdraft charge, I had proof POSITIVE that they charged an overdraft fee on something fully covered by money in my account.
This in and of itself scares me because charging overdraft on the 'potential to go negative' is definitely a new and evil policy, but I am glad to get the $35 back. I am going to be avoiding using BoA for the time being... just gonna let that money sit in there for the moment to cover what ever else might be popping in..
January 15th, 2009
|06:19 pm - I want to scream.|
So i went to check my balance at Fee of America today. It was -5 negative when I was sure it was supposed to be $30.
Well, they put an overdraft charge on my account. I went to find out what the fuck. Apparently my account was momentarily in a state where it 'could have been negative'. For like an hour or so it was at -4.04 *pending*. Not actually negative. Even according to their own records they only could show that my 'available balance' was -4.04 and my real balance was positive $9.
I was flabbergasted. I closed the account right there. Now normally you'd expect that they would try to keep their customer.. but nope, they just closed the account without any attempt to fix the issue ...
Luckily a few weeks ago I opened an account with Wells Fargo. Lets see if they're any better :/
|09:17 am - morning updates|
Well i'm up ... i had fox dreams last night but honestly, thats not been newsworthy for a very long time ..
I'm getting griefed on my cell phone now. Which kinda sucks because picking up the phone costs me $ no matter what.
I've got twitter now (AlynnaFoxie), if anyone wants to add me, turns out I can twitter from my phone.
I'm also using loudtwitter to relay stuff over here. I dont know how much i'll use twitter, but it seems like a convenient way to get stuff from my cell phone to the blog.
I've now got train tickets to FC, so my presence there is just short of certain now...
January 14th, 2009
|06:33 pm - grr livejournal|
Some of the changes to livejournal since i've been away, suck.
I first got a notice that i could upgrade to plus for free, so i did. Then it told me about the ads.
There was no way to downgrade back to basic.
I ended up giving them $5 (for 2 months) to get rid of the ads and get access to the extra features.
I'm also trying to decide if I should add twitter to this... I wonder how i'd use it... if I could twitter from my phone browser for free..
|06:11 pm - Looking in on Livejournal|
i've decided its about time i started using this thing again... I haven't updated in a year, but, honestly that isn't the longest update spell i've ever seen on livejournal.
I guess the conditions of the last year were such.. a drag.. that I really didn't want to write about them, and now i'm finding that ... i'm getting the energy again to do so.
This LJ has been friends only for a while, but I am going to switch it to partially friends only .. meaning i'm going to update some things privately and some things publically.
If you want to be added to my friends list, the easiest way is either to IM me or to friend me. Periodically I scan over my friends list for new friends, and add people based on their profiles and journals.
The biggest update is that I have moved to Pasadena, CA, with yaochi ... i did this about 2 months ago.. Compared to Sacramento this place is paradise... We have a garden (which i help maintain) and I have my own bed and stuff.. I'm happier here, and that leads to more energy
I *AM* going to FC this year still.
And i'm headed to the store now, so i'll post more soon.
January 7th, 2008
|09:11 am - Test..icles|
67% Bill Richardson
60% Mike Gravel
60% Chris Dodd
55% John Edwards
54% Joe Biden
54% Barack Obama
54% Hillary Clinton
53% Dennis Kucinich
50% Ron Paul
47% Mitt Romney
46% John McCain
45% Rudy Giuliani
45% Mike Huckabee
44% Tom Tancredo
42% Fred Thompson
2008 Presidential Candidate Matching Quiz
September 16th, 2007
|11:08 pm - Mythicalia con report: Notes for a better entry/post tomorrow|
16-22:02> <Alynna> this weekend..
16-22:02> <Alynna> has been one long stretch of spiritual bliss.
16-22:15> <TheListener> How so?
16-22:25> <Alynna> Oh well lets see.
16-22:26> <Alynna> lets go over the list of stuff that happened this weekend so I can eventually formulate a post,.
16-22:27> <Alynna> Friday night. Everyone went to bed except me and Eshari, a faerie. We end up going on a night hike at 1am and talk about everything imaginable.
16-22:29> <Alynna> Also Friday Night: We saw a fox. I had both inquired and confirmed something with the spirits around me, that if we had done the right thing and if I should go ahead with my discussion, that a sign of the goodness of it should manifest. A fox did.
16-22:29> <Alynna> Samui had never seen a fox up close and personal till last Friday.
16-22:30> <Alynna> Saturday night:
16-22:30> <Alynna> I ran my panel on therianthropy and animal spirituality. It was a smashing success. it went for hours, it was a major discussion.
16-22:31> <Alynna> it was the longest panel of the night..
16-22:32> <Alynna> later on I went into the forest to recharge and do my energy work.
16-22:32> <Alynna> It turned into a 75 minute conversation with .. the forest.
16-22:32> <Alynna> We just went over.. everything.
16-22:32> <Alynna> I presented myself and Samui to the forest as we are, foxes.
16-22:33> <Alynna> and a conversation started that went on and on..
16-22:33> <Alynna> it was the most fucking amazing thing..
16-22:33> <Alynna> it was powerful beyond words.
16-22:34> <Alynna> I could see the spirits in the trees, in the animals, I could see the faerie. They wanted an offering, and I gave the faerie a sugar wafer.
16-22:34> <Alynna> strawberry.
16-22:34> <Alynna> its all I had but they liked it anyways..
16-22:35> <Alynna> the most powerful part of Mythicalia I made for myself and Samui, in the forest.
16-22:35> <Alynna> As foxes.
16-22:36> <Alynna> one of the important things you should know about the forest, is that, after you present yourself to the forest, you're probably going to find out it knows you or about you.
16-22:37> <Alynna> word gets around trees very fast.
16-22:37> <Alynna> you will also be amazed what trees know about..
16-22:37> <Alynna> Saturday.
16-22:37> <Alynna> I mean sunday.
16-22:38> <Alynna> now to sunday. The real neat stuff didn't happen till later. We wandered around San Francisco alot.. and saw many neat things, including a water fountain for dogs O.o
16-22:39> <Alynna> but I realised that this would be a good chance to meet up with mom in Berserkley..
16-22:39> <Alynna> long story short is that we did
16-22:40> <Alynna> we got to talk about alot of things, some mundane, some not so much..
16-22:40> <Alynna> and she gave me a shiny!!1!
16-22:40> * Alynna cuddles her shiny!
16-22:42> <Alynna> this shiny is now the new center of my spirit workd
16-22:42> <Alynna> i am gonna find a way to put it on a pendant
16-22:54> <TheListener> Sounds like a blast! Though I should sleep now...
August 1st, 2007
|09:47 pm - Plan: Big Kitsune Party|
I am planning a big kitsune/kami party for FC this year. I am in the process of getting a room for it on the party floor, and i'll publish its date, time and room number as it has.
There is unlikely to be punch and pie. But I am planning on many different teas, rice crackers, sushi, kitsune udon, and sake, depending on my financial resources when I go to do this. It will probably go for most of whatever night it occurs on.
Questions going out to you all.. who is coming to FC, and what else do you think we should do with this?
March 27th, 2007
|04:10 pm - Dreamlog.. Again.|
Something is going on with me right now I dont know what, i've been dreaming one after another, once again I dont remember this dream in its entirety, but I remember .. alot more of it than the last ...
( Here it is ...Collapse )
March 26th, 2007
|07:51 am - dreamlog: 20070326|
(edited, LJ really don't like < and >)
We were on Earth for sure, the primary people i noted in this dream were me, Samui, Pyrova and the cat (Natsuki). This was in some Earth future which was post-apocalyptic. I wasn't privy to what actually happened, but whatever happened enabled both magic and physical changes. Dont know the year.
We were all in the expected, non-morphic, 6 tailed, forms. The cat was bigger, and clearly had gained some magic powers at some point, but not as much as us foxes had. The dream was alot longer than this but this is the only part I clearly remember...
Anyway, we (the above 4 mentioned) were in front of a fire, talking. We were on some alert, we might have been migrating from one point to another but we were settled for the night. I do not remember what we were even talking about.
Well this very scrawny (but aggressive) looking dog came by. It was hunting, and made note of the cat. Well I noticed this and looked over back at him. My tail puffed up and my ears fell back about half way and I growled at him... There was no magic involved, but I knew what I was saying with it. [the cat is my friend if you touch, you die].
The dog seemed very disappointed with this, but he hung around, being much less aggressive, and we allowed the dog to share the fire. The cat, said something to the effect of [i would never have survived this long without you all]. I put these in brackets because none of this was spoken, in mind or in word, it was just something you *got* from body language.. anyway..
A few moments later, some crazy *thing* with unusually long ears, attacked us. It might have been a rabbit, but if it was, it was some mutated huge rabbit that seemed to have more in common with a rat. Well we went on self-defense. The dog didn't, the dog just watched. I don't think the dog was in good enough shape to fight anything. After a few moments of fighting, i'd say about a minute, it was taken down.
We pushed it off to the side and the dog looked over at it. It was clear that he was hungry, but wouldn't touch it because it was our kill. At this point we started barking, and it was speech of a kind, I knew what I was barking and it was understood. The dog also barked back, and I understood it. The conversation went something like this (Approximate meaning, in blocks):
Me: [you can have this]
Dog: [are you sure?]
Samui: [we killed it in self defense]
Pyrova: [i don't want to eat that]
Me: [we will hunt] [later]
At this point the dog took it in his mouth and dragged the kill close to him... then he said [i have never met any magic ones before.] [my family will be grateful.] He then ran off with the mutant bunny-thing.
And I woke up soon after that.
Current Mood: mellow
March 16th, 2007
|03:35 am - Dream Documentation|
I had this dream around 2:30am. It was pretty damn lucid... Here it is as dumped from IRC where I documented it originally.
[DISCLIAMER] Please note I claim this as nothing more than a dream, though it might be meaningful or worth interpreting, it did not actually happen that I know of.
We were back at Barcode.. and there was this vampire trying to feed off Samui, so I got in the way and sent him a surge of fox energy...
Well this vampire seemed to notice and came over and got an attitude about it and started to fight..
So I grabbed his arm and started beating him with his own fist screaming "HEY! LISTEN! IT LOOKS LIKE YOUR GETTING YOUR ASS KICKED WITH YOUR OWN ARM! WOULD YOU LIKE SOME HELP?!"
After he fell to the ground, I said, "Hey! Listen! It looks like you have a chance to run away! Would you like some help?"
So I was going to just let him go, and I walked away, but he lunged at me again with a knife this time, but I sensed it coming somehow, and turned away at the last moment, and instinctively grabbed onto him, locked eyes, and drained him of all of his energy in 3 seconds flat.
This caused me to immediately shift physically into a kitsune form.
And people were staring at me screaming OH MY GOD ITS A FOX MONSTER!
Now I didnt want the vampire to die and I knew I drew so much he had only 5 minutes to live, so I locked my muzzle to his lips and threw up part of the energy I had took, back to him.
Then I asked for his Clan and said it'd take 12 days for him to recover, but people were starting to get very antsy about me and were gathering weapons and calling the cops..
So I ran back home, scared to death the entire way and darting in and out of corners...
I couldnt figure out how to change back and people from the cops to animal control kept coming by looking for me, and searching the house, but I was hiding in the box springs with the cat..
I got onto IRC and I was doing my best to type on IRC (with paws, i was a four paw) on #losthaven on IRC, asking people if someone could help me cause I didnt think I could stay where I was without them finding me.
Well a huge fight broke out between therians that say a p-shift CAN'T happen, and people who were there and saw it happen who were also on IRC at the time...
I woke up after this. The most significant part of this dream is that I had no wings, no faerie features at all. Just a fox body and 6 tails. And the fact that it scared me. Most my dreams don't scare me, this one did. Not my form, but that I was actually in danger.
Comments, of any kind, welcome.
March 9th, 2007